A transparent and vulnerable display of the author's life. Ultimately a story of resilience and awakening. Through accepting the lessons learned and reflecting on her life experiences, the author has come to a deep level of self awareness. This self awareness has created revelations that allow for forgiveness, acceptance and ultimate healing. The authors goal in this work is to create a similar experience for each reader. Every individual has faced hardships in their lifetime, each unique to them. These trials can lead to deep seeded wounds. When we walk around as wounded individuals we develop self preservation behaviors. We must first become aware of these patterns of behavior then accept them free of guilt and shame. Next the true challenge begins. FORGIVE yourself and others. When you do the work to make the necessary changes the vicious cycle ends and true freedom begins.